Do you think you are in charge of your own life? Do you really think that you are the “master of your fate, the captain of your soul?”
A man’s steps are from the Lord; how then can man understand his way?
(Proverbs 20:24 ESV)
I remember when I thought I had it all figured out! I choose not to embarrass myself by admitting how old I was at the time, neither do I intend to tell all the stories that prove how clueless I could (can?) be, but I am comforted by the thought that even though things happen that I do not understand, though I cannot appreciate why life should have such wounds and detours, my life is still moving along a path where God reigns. As I try to live my life as a follower of Jesus, my steps are taking me on a path that is known to God, a path that God blesses, even when it takes me through fires and pains that I cannot make sense of. But I can only be comforted by this thought if I also can honestly look at my life and know that I am genuinely trying (however imperfectly) to follow Jesus. If I’m faking that, this whole train of thought is useless. But if my path (and the steps I must take along that path) is from God, then even when I cannot understand, I can be confident. But if I’m the boss of it all?
Lord may my heart remain steadfast, my mind be humble that my steps may walk in your path always.